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Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002

Time:12:43 am.
Mood: mellow.
So I was just looking at a friends LJ, and he posted about girls misconceptions regarding looks, and how most girls (and boys for that matter) look at only whats on the outside. Well I decided to use my response to his LJ as my entry tonight, because it is very disturbing on just how superficial we have become. This I guess is an extension of yesterdays entry.

My post to knightlyman:

I look for whats real, and I also have learned just how horrible people can be regarding looks because I have been able to see both sides -I use to be 80 pounds heavier then I am now (in my childhood, teenage years through my first year of college) Couldn't get anyone, no guys were interested, or girls for that matter - then suddenly I lost weight after discovering I was having insulin difficulties and I was borderline diabetic- I lost about 80 pounds in only the course of 6 months - Went from a size womens 16 to a 4 (and wow! did peoples attitudes change towards me - even my families, and thats pretty horrible, even they treated me different like I was worth more or something as a "thin" girl) It was actually sickening. So don't loose hope, there are good girls out there.
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Monday, April 1st, 2002

Subject:Dedicated To The Man of the Knight
Time:9:44 pm.
Mood: cranky.
So I haven't updated in a few days - I know I know, but my life has been very boring. I went home to see my family for Easter yesterday, they are all well, and my dog was very well behaved for the trip.....he's such a doll! I began rehearsal today for my upcoming show, my voice has really taken a nose dive! I need to work on my vocal exercises and lay off the Marlboro's for a while. This crazy girl Karen keeps calling me and she's totally clogging up my answering machine --- ugggh! I wish I could block this obsessive girls phone number or something, because it would be nice to be able to free up my phone line from her messages and hang ups. I have decided that for some reason my offline friends are becoming more conservative day by day - as if they have something to prove to everyone, why can't people just be real? Why can't people look past others appearances, and stop trying to impress others in the most superficial ways? Why is it that I have have found that most of the authentic people around are the ones that I type to? I wish people would stop the fucking rat race and take a breath once in awhile, after all difference is what makes life and friendships all the more interesting and rewarding. Blah Blah sorry for the ramblings and tangents I really don't know where all of that just came from.
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Thursday, March 28th, 2002

Time:11:47 pm.
Had another "blind date" last night with this girl Alex. It went pretty well - so I am in a really good mood. She is my age and is a photographer - she wants to help me with my new headshots! WOWSA! She is a cutie too - and a DAMN GOOD KISSAR!! :-) So I am supposed to go out with her again tomorrow we are meeting up at the Angelica for a early show, and then who knows what after. I AM PSYCHED!
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Sunday, March 24th, 2002

Time:12:18 am.
So today totally rocked my world! Seriously, I don't know how the happy truck rammed into me - but it did, ohh yes it did! Weird thing is, I am not even on any anti-depressants right now, so it is very odd that I find myself in such a good and content state of mind! Maybe its the whole "its spring" thing - but that never impressed me before so why should it now? I really don't get it, what the hell is wrong with me, why am I so delieriously happy today? Maybe I am bi polar and just don't know it yet?? Hmm, I guess this is what they call the manic phase - :-) Anyway right now I am sitting with hair dye on my head - I am dying my hair redish (well it washes out in like 12 shampoos ) so if it turns out all fucked up, I will only look fucked up for like 2 weeks - thats not so bad. Oh, and finally I am back on my yahoo - something is fucked with my computer, and I am investigating the situation :-) Cha Cha
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Friday, March 22nd, 2002

Subject:My Night With Karen
Time:12:31 am.
Mood: hyper.
So I just got in after meeting for drinks with this girl Karen - my friend set us up and thought we would hit it off really well - unfortunatly she was wrong! The girl talked non stop about her asthma! Seriously, I think I know everything about the respitory system now - I am a breathing expert after tonight! So she says that she is going to call me - I will have to screen my calls for the next few weeks again - I hate having to do that.
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Wednesday, March 20th, 2002

Time:1:11 am.
Mood: amused.
Ok so my neighbor keeps banging his headboard against my wall - hahaha - its a loud night next door! My dog is still throwing up chocolate chip cookies (he can be so bad at trying to sneak food without me watching, I think he has PICA :-) I am going to have to put padlocks on the kitchen closet for him. All in all, today was a good day - a very GOOD day. I am now dancing in my sneaks!
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Monday, March 18th, 2002

Subject:Yippee 4 Me!
Time:10:19 pm.
Mood: depressed.
So I got a third call back! Yay!! I feel like I should be celebrating, but then maybe not. I guess I have been feeling a bit guilty today - I mean I should just be appreciating the little things in life, and everything else is just an added bonus. Some people just are not as lucky to be waiting for a call back - life can just be so unfair sometimes. The luck of the draw just sucks! I am happy and content to just be healthy, I am so fortunate for that and I completely take it for granted. I will try not to from this point forward.
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Time:12:07 pm.
Today is the day I find out if I got a third call back for the audition I went on last week. I am so nervous - I always get like this with any prospect of a new gig. They said that they would be making their calls in the evening, so I guess I will just be forced to sit here and wait. The clock is moving at turtle pace...ugggh! I need to go and eat some lunch before I start getting nauseous with my nerves.
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Time:12:05 pm.
So I finally figured out how to make the page of this journal black instead of white :-) And figured out how to put in my icons that Adrian so kindly made for me. So now this journal is ready to rock!
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